Miscellaneous Essays

Welcome to the “Miscellaneous Thoughts and Essays” section. This section primarily documents daily observations from the internet industry, insights from learning programming techniques, reflections on personal growth, and personal essays. I’ll share authentic, lively, interesting, and unique perspectives and insights, steering clear of empty clichés and superficial theories—focusing instead on heartfelt, genuine reflections. I’ll provide a detailed, end-to-end account of the pitfalls, growth, and reflections along my technical learning journey. Through simple, sincere writing, I aim to create a relaxed, down-to-earth, and unique atmosphere for this tech blog—and I hope you’ll find the content helpful.

I think I'm slowly starting to learn to accept the parts of myself that aren't so great.

I think I'm slowly starting to learn to accept the parts of myself that aren't so great.

The older I get, the more mistakes I realize I’ve made, and the bigger the trouble I’ve caused. I’ve gone from being someone no one ever disliked to someone who is disliked by others. After thinking about it, I realize I actually have quite a few character flaws. For all these years, I’ve been trying to escape or avoid letting others discover my problems, hoping to become someone everyone likes. Come to think of it, perhaps the reason no one disliked me before was because I was always hiding behind a mask. But in certain situations, when I’m feeling flustered…

cheng cheng 2026-07-30
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Some Thoughts on My Anxiety During a Trip Back Home for the Dragon Boat Festival

Some Thoughts on My Anxiety During a Trip Back Home for the Dragon Boat Festival

The work pressure during my recent probationary period has been really intense. On the last workday before the Dragon Boat Festival, while working on a data spreadsheet, I made two consecutive mistakes and sent the spreadsheet to my boss twice. The first time, he asked me to double-check it; the second time, he directly questioned whether I had actually done it correctly. As someone who tends to get anxious, I know that when I’m in a safe and comfortable environment, my work efficiency and accuracy are much higher. But if

cheng cheng 2026-06-20
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The Funny Little Orange

The Funny Little Orange

His name is Xiao Chengzi. Just look at him—how ridiculous. The boss hadn’t replied to his message for just a few hours, and he’d already imagined he’d gone through the entire resignation process. A text message with no punctuation at all had turned into a full-blown workplace horror movie in his mind, and he was the first person to appear—and get fired. But after I finished laughing, my throat felt a little tight. That disaster projector of his—which never turns off—had been stuffed into his head a long time ago.

cheng cheng 2026-06-15
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Are we writing for SEO? Or for our readers? Or for ourselves?

Are we writing for SEO? Or for our readers? Or for ourselves?

SEO stands for Search Engine Optimization. Back when Google was researching search engine ranking and recommendation mechanisms, it used many algorithms, such as awarding points based on backlinks and evaluating the degree of keyword matching within articles. I recall that in the early days, Google’s search engine algorithms were still publicly available (for example, in academic papers), but they were later made private to prevent people from manipulating rankings. Subsequently, domestic search engines such as Baidu, 360, and Sogou also adopted SEO practices.

cheng cheng 2026-06-06
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An Air Conditioner That Can't Be Repaired

An Air Conditioner That Can't Be Repaired

This actually happened last year. Our air conditioner at home broke down, so we called a technician to fix it. The technician wasn’t very old and worked quickly; he took off the panel and pinpointed the problem in no time. I stood there, chatting with him casually. As we talked, I asked, “Technician, how much do you guys usually make a month in this line of work?” When I asked that, what I was really thinking was—what if one day the internet industry...

cheng cheng 2026-05-27
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What Is Success? Perhaps We Need to Live in the Moment

What Is Success? Perhaps We Need to Live in the Moment

For so many years, I’ve always cared deeply about how others see me and about success. It felt as though only my success could earn others’ admiration and understanding. I was laid off recently and have been unemployed for a little over a week now. I’ve been constantly afraid that others might think differently of me. But when I stop to think about it, people don’t really have any particular opinions of me—at most, they might offer some life advice. The real problem lies within myself. Deep down, I’m really struggling with this unemployment,

cheng cheng 2026-04-06
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The 7th Day After Losing My Job

The 7th Day After Losing My Job

Today is April 2, and it’s my seventh day of unemployment. Although I found out about the layoff on March 5, I’m still feeling anxious. Today I returned to my hometown, where I plan to stay for half a month before coming back to look for a job. Readers who’ve made it this far are probably wondering: Why am I going back to my hometown when I’m so afraid of my family of origin? The main reason is my friend Xiao Liu, whom I’ve known for 10 years. Previously,

cheng cheng 2026-04-02
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A Letter to Myself

A Letter to Myself

Hello, my dearest friend: I recently learned that you were laid off and are now unemployed. I understand that you’ve been losing sleep over what your relatives, friends, and family think; that you’re anxious from scrolling through social media posts about people struggling to find jobs; and that you’re anxious about being labeled as “unemployed.” I just want to tell you: you’ve been through a lot. Humans are social creatures, and this helps us better adapt and survive. But on the other hand, within any group, people will inevitably be labeled in different ways, and various

cheng cheng 2026-04-01
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Casual Chats with Friends While Unemployed

Casual Chats with Friends While Unemployed

During this period of adjustment after being laid off, I felt quite distracted every day. A friend told me I was too concerned about the value my job brought me and how the people around me perceived me; he said that even if I weren’t unemployed now, I’d still face this issue once I turned 30. My friend encouraged me to try finding value outside of work. He noticed that right after I was laid off, I was constantly fixated on why my former company had let me go instead of another colleague—even though I later explained to my

cheng cheng 2026-03-20
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Thoughts on Reading

Thoughts on Reading

When was the last time I read a book? It must have been a long, long time ago—I’d say about seven or eight years ago, back when I was still in middle school. Junior high school was probably the time in my life when my mind was the purest. Back then, my life wasn’t yet burdened by so much pretense and overthinking. At that time, our teacher had us all subscribe to a collection of classic novels that every junior high student should read. The content of those books has stayed with me to this day—and perhaps for the rest of my life. Ms. Bing Xin’s *The Lush...*

cheng cheng 2026-03-20
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